You don’t want to see me naked. Trust me. From the outside perspective, the clothed me at 156 lbs. and 5’6” isn’t bad. But take off the clothes and the Spanx I sometimes wear…and…ick. As my mother put it a couple of years ago, I look like I’m melting. I have bingo flaps (loose skin hanging from my upper arms), loose skin around my upper thighs (lower bingo flaps?), and loose skin around my stomach. If I had to guess, I’d say that I have a good 10 lbs worth of loose skin on my body…which explains why I’ve had to work so hard to get from the high 160s to the mid-150s. After all, I was already at a healthy weight; my body’s metabolism wasn’t taking into account the extra skin I’ve been lugging around when deciding whether or not to let loose of another couple of pounds.
While loose skin is a cosmetic thing for some of us — myself included — there are real issues to deal with. I’ve been fortunate to not deal with rashes, chafing, or fungal infections as a result of loose skin, but I’ve heard plenty of stories and have seen plenty of pictures. For me, loose skin is just cosmetic. But it does cause my self-esteem to plummet at times. Also, I’ve had some minor issues with the loose skin getting…caught. Did you know that it’s possible to lay on your own excess arm skin and pinch it painfully? Did you know that loose thigh skin could get trapped between the toilet seat and the toilet when you shifted oddly? Why isn’t there a bra to deal with loose boob skin “overage” around the underarm area? Is there a name for slightly loose skin that is on the backs of lower legs? How many other women have to lift up loose abdominal skin in order to shave the girly bits?
At 331 lbs I looked better with my clothes on. And at 156 lbs I still look better with clothes on. And as much as I try not to let that affect me, and focus instead of being at a healthy weight and living a healthier lifestyle, sometimes it does.