That Fat Chick

Currently, my BMI is 49.9. Scary.
I remember being fourteen or fifteen, and during some of the typical teen squabbles I had with my mom, she would taunt me with, “You keep going like you are, and you’ll be over 300 lbs., fat ass!”
Said from the woman who was my mother and raised me with a [...]

One of the worst things about being so overweight is the sex. Not my ability to have it or experiment with different positions and variations, but how vulnerable and self-conscious I feel during it. Thunderous thighs, ripply stomach (made worse by pregnancy), huge arms… I think the worst is when I’m on top, or when [...]

What motivates me to lose weight?

To look and feel better about myself
To be healthier!
To be more attractive to my husband

Ordered by importance.
What motivates you?

I hate the anxiety. Logically, I know there’s no reason why I would be turned down by either my health insurance company or the doctors: I more than meet the criteria.
But still. I worry. I really wish April 1st would hurry up and get here, so I can get to that info session and suck [...]

Last night when my husband and I went to bed, we spoke for quite a while about my decision to have lap band surgery. At first he wasn’t too willing to hop on board with me, claiming that the choice to have surgery is a bit drastic. I suppose it is, but still, it’s my [...]

I first heard of the lap band procedure two years ago, when I was watching a Discovery Health special on a morbidly obese teenage boy. He was over 400 lbs., and opted for the gastric bypass surgery. At the end of the show, they made mention of the lap band. At the time, I was [...]